Apocalyptic Monday Musings 3/30

More wasteland rants. I ate a ton of popcorn, M & M’s, and taco meat before writing these musings. I might hate myself very soon.

  1. For someone like me who has attempted to make a living at dark fantasy and horror writing, the reality of what is happening just outside my front door, down my street, and in the hospitals just miles away from my home blurs the line between dreams and reality. I never wanted to use my fiction writing to attract people to clouds of catastrophe, from supernatural mechanisms and otherwise. More so I wanted to scare them away from dreaming about a life without the conveniences of modern society. How blessed my generation was to avoid these calamities. Annihilation was never meant to be romanticized.
  2. I’m finding it important for my mental wellbeing that I not overindulge with information. It isn’t because I want to stick my head in the sand and not be informed about what is happening. I try and listen to a few updates from the news and read a few articles a day. However, any more than that and my anxieties skyrocket to unmanageable levels. Plus, my job is considered essential since I work with supplying internet equipment internationally (without streaming services, the apocalypse would be hastened). If I make the mistake of informing too much at work, while, then I literally can’t concentrate on anything.
  3. A buddy of mine who works at Target can’t keep the shelves stocked with apocalyptic material. It is constantly flying off the racks. I wonder what it is about living through our own little apocalypse that makes you flee towards these tales of doom. It could be anything. Attempts to understand, compare, or even sympathize with other songs of destruction. We want to see how other people dealt with global cataclysms, even if they’re completely fictional. Sometimes we need fiction to understand our own nonfiction. That is one of the many reasons I love this genre.
  4. I have to admit I was inclined to write another book in the Greenland Diaries for fall, but with the current climate and how it is just sort of changing how you perceive oblivion, well, I might hold off. The sequel to Beware the Ills seems more plausible. I love that story. It is still my favorite. I didn’t plan for there to be a sort series to go along with it. You’d know why if you read the book. But, I sold out the moment someone wanted to buy it if the book was part of a series. You think you have morality about that sort of stuff, but then, well, you don’t.
  5. I just want to thank all the people out there who are dealing with the pandemic. Healthcare workers, teachers, everyone and their generosity for helping people get through this horrifying event in human history. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I always admire people who don’t run away from the fire, but towards it. There are so many bits of love, positivity, and hope amidst all this madness. This gets lost as the cases and deaths continue to rise, but you need to find this positive energy no matter where you can get it. Thank you.

Jottings:

  • Podcast will be coming soon. I can’t wait. Got the demo of it tonight. Going to listen to it tomorrow at work.
  • Just ten days or so till Final Fantasy VII is released. God, I can’t take the anticipation.
  • Didn’t want to write today or tonight, but I knew people might benefit from it in some way so I’m muscling through it. My eyes keep closing. Don’t want to fall asleep and wake up to a hundred pages of just one letter hit from my sleeping hand. It wouldn’t be the first time.
  • I’ve thoroughly addicted to buying games online. I can’t stop. Argh. The Nintendo eShop owns me.
  • Get your free month of CBS All Access while you can. Just Google it. Picard awaits.
  • Thank you again everyone for reading. Stay safe and healthy.