Apocalyptic Monday Musings 4/6

More apocalyptic musings. Disbelief, unseen enemy, history books, empty cities, restarting the economy, and its all nonfiction. Ugh…

  1. There are many moments throughout the day that I can’t believe this is happening. Because of the complexity of daily life with technology, media, and even family, I almost forget about it. I play with or interact with my four kids (I only say “interact” because my older kids have their own interests and I’m growing less cool), work my day job, watch trashy television with my wife (we can’t handle anything serious right now so it has been nonstop Survivor), or play a video game. I’m currently playing Fallout 4, which is ironic and vaguely masochistic.
  2. At the end of the distractions, heaviness sinks onto my shoulders and I remember what invisible monsters have nestled out there in the world. At times, I wish COVID-19 were a brutish abomination from other apocalyptic stories, including my own. If only it could be something big, noticeable, like a wandering blob of reanimated flesh with some bone-wild blades dangling from its hands (that was shameless plug to my book series). Instead, we have a crowned demon microscopically lurking on strangers, friends, family, and even lovers. There is something personal and violating about how it spreads. Rating other monsters is a slippery slope. There is no better or worse with the apocalypse. It’s just terrible.
  3. There are times I think about how in a decade we’ll look back at this event. It might be that COVID-19 is simply another highlighted chapter in some teenager’s textbook. I can see it now at the top of the page in bold letters, with an image of the virus floating in a square of white space. I remember reading those chapters in history class back in high school. They were about the Depression, World War 2, or, ironically, the Bubonic Plague. I would think only one thing about the past catastrophe. I’m glad I didn’t live then. However, hardship doesn’t skip any one person, or generation. We’re not anymore special than our ancestors in that regard, we just have more technology and education, which doesn’t guarantee that we’ll react appropriately. As we’ve found out…
  4. I’m not going to lie about how the world looks when I drive around while Minnesota is under shelter in place. It’s eerily beautiful. I’m not pro-apocalypse in anyway shape or form, but there is something stunning about watching the world without us. You notice how much space we take up. How our lights penetrate the dark. The shadows have spaces between alleys and streets that seemed so occupied before. I think this imagery echoes at the simple idea that the natural world exists with or without us. Humans are just passengers on a much longer journey.
  5. I’m trying to balance between positivity and negativity with these blogs posts. I don’t want to sugarcoat the situation we’re in, but I also don’t want to dwell on oblivion. One thing that I find sort of funny about how people are talking about life after COVID-19, and keep in mind I’m no economist, but I hear people clinging to the concept that the economy will just turn back on again like it was before, like when your computer freezes and you restart it. I think that will happen in some respects, but I also think this event will change what we prioritize in commerce. I think we’ll be a little less materialistic, and more willing to invest in our healthcare infrastructure. At least I hope that happens.

Jottings:

  • Speaking of the end of the world, my most popular book and the start of my apocalyptic book series The Greenland Diaries: Days 1 – 100 is free today on the Kindle to download. Click here to take advantage of this special offer.
  • I’ve switched up my writing routine to at night for the week. Oof. Keep falling asleep. I’m extra tired thanks to the pandemic.
  • Started watching the Tiger show on Netflix. Yup. It is terrifyingly weird.
  • Hoping to start a reading schedule. I’ve got a Vampire Hunter D book to read. It’s in paperback. That’s just strange.
  • Calamity’s Keep should return soon.
  • Final Fantasy VII is out in five days. I feel like it 1997 all over again, minus the plague and the awkward puberty checkpoint. I’m super excited.
  • Stay healthy everyone! If these musings keep repeating themselves, while, I’m sorry. I’m still processing what’s happening. It’s tough. I might just describe empty cities over and over again. That really resonates with me.